GODS PATIENT PERSISTANCE.

Psalm 33:3 Sing to Him a new song; Play skillfully with a shout of joy. 

Have you ever felt God calling you to do something for His glory, but for some reason, or many reasons, just chose not to listen?Did doubt, fear, pride, laziness, or something else get in the way?  Well THIS blog…would be my “something”. 

I have always had a love for music, even before I fell in love with Jesus.However, once I grew a relationship with Him, He showed me why and for what I should be loving it! It was and is to praise YAHWEH! To give Him glory and Honor. To meet Him in a place of Worship. Music, truely became one of the greatest doors to connecting with my God. 

“God inhabits the praises of His people!” Psalm 22:3

I knew that God was leading me to sing to Him and Play skillfully as psalm 33 says, but then the battle of Pride and fear set in. I believe that ever good and perfect gift given from God is tested and at some points faces opposition from SELF and EVIL. If God has a purpose and plan, darkness and sin wants to destroy and distract from it! I felt this battle extremely strong when asked to LEAD worship for a womans conference.. in RUSSIA!!  I knew it was Gods calling and deep within my heart I wanted to obey. But I was so scared. Fear of rejection, messing up, not being ‘good enough’..the list goes on and on… but all God was wanting, was a simple act of obedience.

He knew I would have these feelings, but still, all He wanted was obedience. So falling to my knees, knowing that I couldn’t lead all these woman on my own, I prayed for His Holy spirit to fall upon me.  At that moment, I realized that my focus had been on SELF the entire time. Worship isn’t primarily for US, it is ALL for GOD!

Today I stood looking at my guitar.. I haven’t truly played for the past 2 years, and the memory of Russia flooded my mind… Sometimes God is patiently persisting us with His plans, and all he wants us to do is listen and obey. So..with this said, I am starting to play again. To worship Him because He is worthy and deserves it. He is an amazing  God and I am so greatful for how He teaches us.

Take courage in the things God is leading you to do.He will give you His Spirit for strength and courage and put a passion within your heart to accomplish His will. His ways are always better than our own!

“In the quiet, in the stillness I know, that you are God,In the secret of your presence I know there I am restored.” Hillsong united

We all have had or will have certain moments where, in the stillness of being with GOD, his love, truth, and presence is known. One of my most cherished moments was when I was in Israel. As I was walking through the tunnel inside the western side of the wailing wall in Jerusalem, there was this woman whom fell asleep in prayer to the LORD. This specific spot she was sitting at was the closest point to the inner temple.  It humbled my heart to see, that in her own understanding, all she wanted to do was be as close as she could to GOD. I saw so many Jews have such fervent desire and zeal to seeking after Him there, which made me of course evaluate myself and fellow christians. Having the word of God at our fingertips and the ability/freedom to worship him without persecution, where is our zeal? where is our fervent desire for His Love? 

I want this type of relationship with my maker. Face down before him every waking moment I have, to know Him intimately. To be as close to Him as I possibly can. To fall asleep after having long discussions with Him. Our God is HOLY HOLY HOLY the LORD GOD Almighty and deserves our reverent fear and respect. 

I’ve turned another chapter in the book of my life. MARRIAGE is what some people like to title it. I must say, since the day of the wedding(January 29th) to this moment, its been a wonderful chapter to step into. Along with the excitement of finally becoming one flesh with my best friend, I have had this tug of the Holy Spirit creating a passion within my heart for MORE of God. 
      
     2010 was by far one of my most spiritually challenging years I’ve walked through since getting to know the Lord. I found my eyes focusing more on the circumstances, struggles, difficulties, and battles rather than clinging tighter to God. I felt the warfare and drifting within me and didnt seek a stronger Power  the LORD whole heartily as often as I should have. With this being said though, Christ is more powerful and in charge than I will ever know. He is the one who gives us our help and who was holding me up when I was weak. 
     
      The title of this blog is called AWAKENING! I am waiting in expectancy to see what God wants to show me and how best I can serve Him with my whole heart, soul, and mind. I’ve been asking God to awaken the areas where I’ve been sleeping and shine light on what needs attention.
My Prayer is that my life, my husband, my church, my family, and my dearest friends, will know Gods vision and defined plans for their lives. That the Holy Spirit would come and breath life on those spiritually dead. That WE his people would be awakened. 

Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’” - Matthew 22:37-39 

 
Be encouraged. Be still. Seek God.